Whats a blog without an emo post eh?

So its been 3 weeks since I'm back home. Life's quite relaxed and good I would say.. Its just the getting to sleep part which is undoubtedly the WORST part of everyday. I can't sleep. Maybe because I'm falling too dependent on Kane and Rummer being on the bed because nowadays I feel so freaking insecure, paranoid and I worry about every single little thing under the stars before I sleep. Its stuff like:

"I probably can't find an apartment next year and they will find out I have Rummer in the house! How am I going to manage? Then I would have to evict and I'll have nowhere to stay and what do I do with Rummer??" and then my mind starts freaking out for half an hour

"Omg, did this person say so and so because they meant so and so?????? How could I been so blind? Why didn't I realise it before??"

"Omg by the time I graduate and get registered and want to do Masters I'd be so old and I'll just start to work and how would I find the money to establish a comfortable living in time? I will have to have kids at 30 something years old!!!"

and then more panic. And the weird thing is during the day stuff like that doesn't even cross my mind. Argh its seriously killing me. Nowadays I get to sleep at about 4 something. I can usually get this feeling away for abit by reading books but if I read something that pulls my heartstrings or make me think too much I'm left there to ponder and wonder and let my thoughts drive me nuts for another half an hour. Its so bad that sometimes I only sleep when the sun comes up.

Anyway it bothered me so much I googled it and I actually might (ok most probably) have night time paranoia. Does anybody have the same sort of weird paranoia as well? Apparently its quite normal. And I don't think mine is quite serious, there are people lying on their beds afraid of people coming up to them and stab them!

I feel like I'm going insane. I just want to sleep. I think I got so sleep deprived I actually collapsed 3 something in the morning while trying to get some medicine and obviously scared the shit out of my parents because this time when I passed out I was actually crying and wailing (wtf?) so loud that I woke my mum who was sleeping upstairs. Okay I sound pretty possessed right now! I mean how could I have cried (with tears btw) and wail when I felt totally unconscious? *creeped out by self*

Alright I'm quite convinced that you guys think I'm a strange, sick little emo child now. Eeheehee. Anyway, I'm typing this out at 3 30am cos I couldn't sleep again just now so i whipped out my handy dandy laptop and blogged which did help. I'm going to try and sleep again so wish me luck everyone!

Debbie turns 19 today!! Weehooo. Who smells a birthday post coming up?

I do!

I've been back for a week and I guess its about time to update you about my little adventures.

First off I'm happy to have reached home and not some.. I dunno random place in China because its my first time flying-solo! And yeah I've boarded many many planes in my life but those were always with my family or a group and what I do is just tag along in the airport not knowing a thing. The only thing I know about airports is its time to eat Maccas because I eat there like everytime I'm in the airport LOL. Anyway, when I got back, I was very happy to see mother (who is much skinnier now, or maybe I'm much fatter) and little brother (who isn't that little anymore) waiting for me!

And so I was brought home and when the gate was opened, this HUGE ASS DOG OF A SORT POUNCED ON ME. And I was like HOLY MOLY MOLLY (get the pun) IS THAT YOU????????? She seems like she remembers me! And it also seems that she likes me alot considering I'm her mother who abandoned her as a baby. But of course now she's so much more attached to my brother, my dad calls him Molly's "sugardaddy" ahhaha wtf 2dmax. Everytime my brother is near she will whine for him to come over and pat her. And my brother feeds her utter nonsense! That day when we went for mamak, he tapau roti canai for Molly WTF?!!! I protested like crazy and in the end Molly didnt get her roti canai. I CAN'T BELIEVE MY DOG EATS ROTI CANAI AHAHAHHAHA.

As I stepped in my house was in a mess because half of my house was under renovation. And so now my brother and I are sharing my room, which is cool because now I don't really have an issue with space anymore after having a taste of staying in a studio apartment. Even my room is bigger than the entire studio apartment I swear to George its true!

At night Debbie, Victor and Luther brought me to Pappa Rich which is this new place in Uptown! And so we had a good catch up session with many many foods of course!

By the way, let me share the comments I've received from the people who saw me for the first time since I arrived home:
1. Fat already.
Okay, I emotionally prepared myself for this one so I didn't immediately run to my room, cry at the corner and die a slow painful death(although tempted to). I'm much more defensive to the word 'fat' now. I will burst into a screaming fit that its the heart that counts! Ain't nobody gonna tell me I ain't good enough! Ain't nobody gonna tell me I ain't beautiful! Its the love you have in your heart and not the love handles that sit above your jeans!! Okay, overdoing it.

2. Why your arms so muscular?
Oh these babies? Kiss them goodnight every night.

3. Black already.
HAHAHAHAH FUCK YOU SERIOUSLY.

The next day I did my hair! I walked into the salon and gave my hairdresser a fright! He was like, "Oh my god, your hair is so spoilt! Look at it! It sticks together! Your split ends are 1.5 inches long! I cannot save it anymore. I'll have to cut it off, and the rest I'll try to save." Ahhaha, my poor hair has been neglected for far too long. Whenever Kane tries a romantic gesture of running his fingers through my hair, it always gets stuck at the ends and I'll go OW OW OW OWW. And he'll go "sorry sorry sorry" And we'll spend quite awhile getting his hand out of my hair. ROMANTIC FAIL! Anyway, I got a perm, cut and a mind-blasting bill. My dad got a shock after I told him the price, after taking 100 out of the total bill. LOL.

So other than that, life's been quite chill for me. I went to KLCC twice, I drink coffee bean on a daily basis (sometimes even twice a day). OH BTW, new Coffee Bean branch opening in Uptown! My dying wish has been fulfilled!!!!! Thanks George!!!!!!!!!! I've also been meeting up with my homies almost every night that my parents are finding it hard to play cool. Gah I almost forgot how it feels like to deal with naggy parentals! I can't wear shorts out at night, almost every top I wear is 'too low-cut' and mother even forbids me to bring a bag out cos she's scared I'll be a victim of snatch thief! I don't blame her, but wow I just realised, what a country we live in! Making my parents so paranoid!

Nowadays when I go out with my parents to eat or whatever I just wear what I wear at home - My brother's old pants and a hand-me down t-shirt, and my glasses so I look disguised because I am antisocial like that LOL. Just kidding. But really, if you guys see me you won't know its me cos I look like a boy.

Oh random thing that popped into my head! That day when I was in OU sitting down having a teh tarik, I saw this maid chasing after a little boy. She was really chasing the little tyke up and down and I almost spit out my drink when I saw her t-shirt that read "I AM A VIRGIN" in BIG RED CAPS and "(this is a very old t-shirt)" in tiny font. BUT SERIOUSLY WHY THE EMPLOYERS TO CRUEL TO MAKE HER WEAR THIS SHIRT THAT SAYS I AM A VIRGIN AND RUN AROUND OU??!!!! Caption tees fallen to the wrong hands.

Anyway, its late and I should go now. Ah I can't sleep nowadays without Kane and Rummer being on the same bed as me. And no one to disturb the shit out of me in the mornings. :( I miss the two so muchh. I also miss my coffee buddy, Ms Sarah Wong Sheang Mei, GET YO' ASS HERE RIGHT NOW WOMAN and lets have our fix LOL. And the entire Melb household. The 3 crazy pups (I happen to own the craziest one). I heard my boy isn't eating well and that makes me very sad. :'( I guess you can't get the best of both worlds.

Why am I so emo now wtk. Ok I shall sleep now or I'll start weeping on my laptop and I will have to buy a new one.

Till next time folks!

 Hihihihi!!

Its been too long I say! Sorry about the unannounced hiatus. As you probably guessed I was too busy pulling my hair out for my exams, and now its finally finally over. That was the worst week of my life because I had 4 exams in a span of a week and all subjects required huge memory work. Glad its over but can't really celebrate with many people because most of their exams haven't even started! So anyway, I'm flying back to KL on the 14th Nov and will reach there at about 9am in the morning. I'M SO EXCITED!!!!!!

 One thing I'm not particularly excited about is the weather. Its Summer now and its about as hot as KL and I feel like I'm a walking torch. I can sweat my ass off (quite literally) just by sitting down doing nothing. Today Rummer and I lied on the bed, too hot to move infront of our new evaporative cooler which is our new best friend and he, let's name him Bradford, follows us wherever we may go~! Bradford is huge by the way. But we don't care. We need him. But I guess in KL it wouldn't be so torturous because although its really hot but at home we're privileged with air-con and cars to travel around, and not wait under the sun for the tram. Speaking of which, when I was waiting for the tram today, some crazy dude came up to me and asked me out to the movies. Yes people, I am THAT hot. Call me. ;)

So its been 3 days since my exam and I haven't been doing that much except try to keep the house clean and do crossword/Sudoku puzzles. I take super freaking ages to do them and that might be because 1. Its really hot and 2. I'm just blaming everything on the heat. Seriously. Today I went to Vic market and I was buying a pair of shades, I was talking to the shopkeeper about the heat and he said that last year it the highest temperature was 50 degrees celcius. WTF? I don't think that's true but seriously, did you know that your enzymes start to denature, no actually stop functioning at approx 42 degrees celcius? How the eff is it possible to survive? I think at that temperature everyone's just at home being a nudist. Anyway where was I? Yeah I was talking to the shopkeeper and when he handed me the shades I put it in my bag and said see you! Then he said Oh Oh wait, did you pay me yet? LOL. I almost stole today because of the heat. Anyway of course I apologised and he said no its ok, its the heat. See what  I mean? Perfect excuse for anything, even for crime neyyehehe.

By the way, Its freaking 5 am and I'm still wide awake. It gets later and later every night because last week I stayed up every night trying to finish my syllabus. Ah the good old days, NART. So! These few days I'll be shopping around, anyone want anything from the Land of Oz, better tell me now! 

Anyway Imma go sleep now. Promise will update loads more with random pics nwo that exams are over!! 

Yesterday the 'gang' featuring Debra minus Alex and Sean went to the Royal Melbourne Show. It was SO FREAKING AWESOME. Basically its a carnival/funfair/market/farm animals festival? sort of thing? I don't know, its everything!

Kane and I went early that day because we wanted to see the dog judging! It was raining and gloomy. Worse still we couldn't find a map and we were just walking around cluelessly in the rain. But we managed to find one and found ourselves in the dog judging arena!!! Actually one of the reasons I wanted to go on Thursday is because I wanted to see the Jack Russell Terriers (they have different breeds of dogs everyday). And there we were, front row watching the Rummer-lookalikes being judged! My heart melted into a big gooey puddle. You will never hear me repeat AWWWWWWWWWWW so many times in your life lol.

Just when we lost hope for the weather, the sky cleared up and the sun shone like crazy! And our friends arrived so we went to the carnival games eventhough we know we're just getting conned.


Then we went to the rides! First was the slide!




Then I wanted to go on the Sky Flyer and everyone was so kind to come along! I loved the one in Genting but this one is just SO SOOOOOOOO much higher.


When we were ascending I was getting so nervous that my palms started getting sweaty and when it started to turn and the radius was growing, that feeling is SO FREAKING SCARY. Then I started screaming my lungs out while Kane was repeating "Omg Bi I cannot anymore Omg bi please I'm going to puke" like a broken tape recorder. After 2 minutes which felt like half an hour, we finally descended to the ground. And then I kiss the ground. No I didn't.

Moving on to the FARM ANIMALS!!!!!!!!!!!



I think the showbag most worth the money is the MU showbag. Others were full of random nonsense. Like the one I bought, which had DIY jelly powder in there. WTF? Oh wells. LOL.I also wanted to buy a blonde wig but couldn't find the power to fork up $10 to look like a bimbo for the day. :(

I HAD SO MUCH FUN! I'D DEFINITELY GO AGAIN NEXT YEAR. And I know I didn't write much this post but I'm really letting the pictures do the talking this time. The bonus of going out with Debra is that you get many many many pictures so YAYYY to Debra!

My holidays have officially begun. I actually took this whole week as an unofficial holiday because the Melbourne Uni students eg. Kane are already on holiday and I just succumb to peer pressure. LOL.

See you gias soon! Hopefully I'll do something interesting or I'll just blog about studying. Weehoo.

Happy birthday Eu Wing!! Time flies like a fly. I vividly remember all our friends went to his apartment to surprise him in Kane's car. Its been a year already? Slap me and call me a mushroom.

We celebrated the day before his actual birthday in a fancy westauwant called Meat and Wine Co. if I'm not mistaken..The food was quite good but they took freaking ages to seat us and everything. We made a reservation at 8 30pm and we got there in time. By the time we started eating it was 10pm. Wtf right? Luckily I wasn't starving or else I'd be one cranky bitch.
After dinner we got on a tram and went to Club X. For you Malaysians who've never seen this place before, its the dodgiest "strip club" EVER. Wait let me google image a picture of it:

Greetings!!

Since the last time i updated much has happened. 2 weeks ago, someone reported me having a dog in my apartment. What a prick! Rummer and I stayed at Kane's for about 2 weeks and when i decided to go home and get some work done, before even reaching the 3rd day some tartface comes along and reports me. I mean, does this person has anything more productive to do like hmmm I dunno.. masturbate in his room to cheap porno? The worst noise he has ever made in that 3 days is 7 mins of barking because he wasnt happy with us leaving him alone. But yeah i guess some people are just retards at heart.

Anyway! How i found out i got reported is by a 8 30am phone call by my property manager that went as follows.

Me: Hello? *groggy*
PM: Hi goodmorning! How are you?
Me: Good thanks (but obviously not due to disrupted sleep)
PM: Do you have a dog in your apartment?
Me: *eyes immediately becomes 5 times larger* No i dont.
PM: Someone reported that there is a dog in your apartment. If its not your do you know any other tenant around you with a dog?
Me: No idea sorry.
PM: Alright thanks bye.

We immediately gathered all his stuff and bolted off to Kane's place, fearing they would just burst in my apartment for a surprise check. Close one! So now he'll be staying in Kane's place with his housemates Timmy and on-and-off again girlfriend Zoe for 3 months until i move out with Sheng Yi. I'm so excited! I'm trying to find a place where pets are allowed but that my friend, is a whole other story.

Moving on now, to Up!


I loved it sooo much. I watched it alone when Kane was being antisocial aka napping. And I watched it off his comp and I was trying hard to sob very silently, which requires alot of skill. Why do Pixar make such movies!! And its supposed to be a kids' movie. I'm 19 and I'm already crying like a bitch. If I was 7 I'd be crying in my room and not eating for a week.

Anyways! I loved loved loved the beginning part when the music just plays while their lifestory is being told without a single word. Its real in a way that when we're kids we aim to do so many extraordinary things and as we get older we sink in into everyday routines, we settle into that mundaneness and call it 'life'. But eventually at a point we'll realise that the greatest adventure of all is finding love and creating those beautiful memories.

By the way, when did I become so sappy?

But yeah then there's the normal chasing around part which I didn't particularly enjoy but its a kids' movie so yeah I can't really complain. As usual I think chasing parts are always longer than they should be. Maybe cos I have quite a low tolerance for them haha. But the sappy part totally compensated for it! Wuwuwu. I loved the movie.

Hmmm.. I'm trying to think of what did I do for the past few weeks..

Oh I went to Crown Casino. First time being in a casino since like, EVER? It was me and 'the gang'. if you don't remember who the gang is it would be *takes a deep breath* Me Kane Wing Jarrel Sheng Alex Sean feat. his gf. w00t. We had awesome dinner there (Unfortunately I don't have pics, they're all with Jarrel and he never comes on MSN therefore I can't post anything up wuwuwu. People who read my blog are so patient to just read words and very rarely stumble upon pictures, which then they would be entirely grateful to the world to not read so much of this shit I'm typing right now and I'm just gonna continue typing to make this look like a paragraph full of relevant information of my life.) OH AND I LOST 5 BUCKS ON THE BLACKJACK TABLE. I don't think you guys wanna hear my gambling story but I'll tell you anyway, when I get 20 the niama dealer gets 21. If I get 21 they also get 21. I landed with 14 so many times and took another card but too much. Then when Kane told me to stop ebing stupid and just settle with 14, the dude beside me draws a 7. WTFF?? Anyway, I was winning at first, then lost al the way to -60 I think. Then when I won back most of it then I bolted off.

Also, I didn't go to this Merdeka countdown event thing which I totally regretted not going because practically everyone I know in Melb, except 'the gang' went and didn't tell me because I'm "memang not the clubbing kind" Okay geez, go form cliques now will ya?

THENNN, it was..

Man, we're getting so good at this that we should receive presents for our friends. BUT nah, if we end up marrying each other I tell you our gifts should be as big as the moon kay. No toaster all this nonsense.

Anyways, we walked down this whooooole stretch of Lygon Street starting from Brunswick, trying to find a nearby Italian restaurant but ended up all the way in Mercadante in the city =___= And being typical Kane and Shu Ling, plenty of little scuffles and disagreements on the way. LOL. Pictures!



On another note, I can't seem to concentrate on studying anymore.. I'm mentally drained... I made capsules today though. IT WAS SO FUN. Maybe I should steal those capsules, come home and fill them up with flour and force Kane to eat them. WAIT WHY AM I SO STRANGE?

And last but not least! MY RED IPOD NANO 5G IS ARRIVING TOMORROW!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! I HOPE I DON'T SOIL MYSELF THINKING ABOUT IT BEFORE I SLEEP. I'M KIDDING BY THE WAY. ABOUT THE SOILING PART.

A few days ago Faye brought us to buffet. Me <3333333333333333333 buffets. Ate like a pig as usual.

Its been like a freaking century ago since I updated eh?

At least noon'es complaining, except for Debbie last time but I think she gave up on me. LOL. I haven't been updating much because I feel like I've been filling people on my life on Twatterz. Follow me if you want to hear my exciting adventure of me skipping uni and eating like a fatboy.

I'm just gonna do a point form update on whatever that pops up in my mind.

1. I've got to finish this 2000 word assignment
and I've been telling myself to finish it everyday since 2 weeks ago.

2. I watched Bruno.


Sorry about the huge poster. My editor is being funny and I can't make it smaller. Anyways, it was funny, I prefer Borat but Bruno has more uncomfortably long scenes. LOL. 

3. I went to Camberwell market
It was a few days ago and upon 10 minutes since we reached the wind went ballastic and things started flying everywhere. The stallkeepers grabbed on to their stuff. I saw this huge plastic boxes that were driven by the wind and hit this car so hard. Ouch. I grabbed whatever I could. Not very satisfied though.

4. Having a mild sore throat again and I think its cos of the coffee. 
My momma was right. Coffee is 'heaty'. I'm very intrigued by the whole concept of 'heaty'. WHO DECIDES THESE THINGS? 

5. I think its starting to slowly transition to Spring but the weather can be such a bitch.
Actually I'm being nice. The weather is a f********************************************.

6. I'll upload some pics later. 

Thats all for now folks.

 You know, you never realise how spoiled you are till you use publilc transport.

This morning I had to get to my 8 30am class. As usual I was running a little late due to some technical difficulties (Read: couldn't wake up) and when I was about 7 footsteps away from the tram stop the tram left without me. Nevermind, I'll just wait another 10 minutes. So I did, and when the tram come I could hardly get in. I managed to squeeze 1 foot and my ass into the crowd with my other leg dangling on the entrance steps. I didn't have anything to hold either! Call me superwoman LOL. 

Then the tram stopped and the schoolkids had to get off and I had to get off to make way for them. They got off one by one and by the time we 6th kid came out, the 7th kid was making her way out, the tram door closed and she had to step back into the tram. Her face looked mortified as the tram left. So was mine, because for the second time in the morning, the tram left without me. 

Saddest public transport story ever. FML. LOL.

 I've been tagged by Lauranne!

6 things that make me happy:

6. A hot cup of cappuccino

5. Reading something inspirational

4. Random phone calls from friends and family


3. Midnight snacks

2. Receiving random gestures of love from him


1. Cuddling Rummer

Hi ya'll!

Sorry for not updating often at all. But I don't exactly feel like I haven't been blogging because I've been telling the world about what I've been doing on  a daily basis on Twitter.

I've been asked by many people (Okay by many I mean my bitch Chloe, love ya bitch xoxoxooxooxooxox) to post more pictures. So, I tried! my camera is always in my bag now so if I remember to take it out I might snap a few pictures.

Yesterday Kane and I went to a live AFL match at the MCG (no idea what that stands for but its a huge stadium) for the first time just for funsies! 50 thousand people turned up to watch Carlton Blues vs Richmond Tigers. We were supporting the Blues (I was anyway... Kane was being indecisive). And I know you must be thinking, Shu Ling + Stadium = Shu Ling probably on drugs. But hey dawg, you wrong. And you must be also thinking, "I bet she didn't even finish watching the game". Well you're half right on that one, the game so so freaking ass long. I think about almost 2 hours so I ponteng about 15 minutes of the match to go line up for coffee and about 10 minutes peeing because my bladder was at the verge of exploding.

I wouldn't say I understood everything going on in the match. I enjoyed the parts where they are passing the ball, very exciting, and when they shoot. But I was very confused at the way they tackled each other for the ball, it was very rough and I kept thinking uhh, isn't that a foul? I loved cheering for the goals though! The spirits were high and it was awesome being a part of the crowd. :D

Anyways here are some pictures:

Last week Li Hong, her friend Jessica and I went to Harbourtown. Its a beautiful place to shop because its like an outdoor mall (think the Curve concept). I think its a touristy place so they had this fake snow shit that we posed with: 

I went shoe-crazy there! I bought 2 pairs of boots and a pair of heels (which I will never find an occasion to wear to). Its okay, shoe fetish satisfied for the moment.

I realised that I forgot how to smile for pictures and which is my angle so I'm left with very unflattering pictures. So I started camwhoring! And I'm being a camwhore bitch to post this on my blog just in case you forgot how I look like:
And pictures of my baby!

Yesterday when Kane and I were out, he toppled over the puppy food bin and if you know Rummer, he IS the world's greediest dog (ie. the dog version of me), his eyes probably shone like diamonds as he witnessed the glorious pellets of food spilling on the floor. He had hit the jackpot. He could not believe his eyes. Is this heaven? He leaped with excitment and stuffed his face into that mountain of bliss. He gorged the food euphorically, swallowing as much as he could before he was busted for it. His friend, Timmy said, "Uhh, I don't think this is a good idea, but okay.." with a hint of guilt which was overpowered by temptation, he picked up a few pieces and started eating very slowly. Then Sarah came and they were caught red-handed.

The rest of the night he was bloated. If I didn't know him I would think he's a pregnant mother about the give birth RIGHT NOW. Kane and I got worried and called the vet. They say it could be serious and we might need to bring him in if he bloatedness didn't reside in a few hours. But anyways, thank goodness he's okay now and he's not looking preggers anymore. In the morning he shat tonnes and stank up the whole place. We're not feeding him today because we were advised not to. I think he deserves a punishment so severe. LOL.

Random pictures time!

 So I'm not going home afterall!

As I start sharing the news, people ask (including my parents) "How do you feel? Are you sad?" 

Well, as much as I miss my family, Molly and my dear friends. I honestly do not mind for a single second just lazing about, doing whatever I want, chilling at cafes and having Italian dinners, jogging at the park, taking Rummer for walks and a few relaxing trips to the mall of course! I've had a rough month preparing for exams and this is the break I need. Travelling back home will mean frantically shopping last minute, packing, boarding the plane all by my lonesome self for 8 hours only to be quarantined in a hotel for 5 days. And by the time I come back I only have 2 days to settle down before another semester of Bachelor of Hell-on-Earth starts. Not that its not worth it to see my bloods and homies but gosh, I'm honestly really tired. I want everything to slow down please!! Is there a slow motion button on life? Rhetorical question. I'm just trying to sound optimistic for once haha.

And yeap, that's exactly what I wanna do. My parents are being super nice to me though. They said I can plan my own holiday to do whatever I want (even go to Brisbane or Sydney for a short holiday) eventhough I burned a one way ticket back home (too late to postpone) but yeah, I'm just gonna spend my money on coffee and the ocassional pretty thing I see. I might even drag Kane to the beach eventhough its freezing just to spend the whole day watching waves roll. NO COMPLAINTS. :D

(Oh and the Sims. I'm putting this in brackets because this spoils the kind-of sentimentalness of the post)

See you guys in Malaysia at the end of the year! I still miss each and everyone of you noisy nutcases!

P/S: The wind is crazy here at night! Its freezing cold at night and when the wind blows there are Wooo Woooo sounds. Not my cup of tea. :S

 Today I saw an old couple on the tram, chatty, loving and still full of life. I wonder if one day I will get to experience such old love? 

Will I go through the thick and thins of life with the love of my life?  Even if the glow on our skin is faded, the fancy heels burried beneath loafers and the sex has gone along with the flat stomach and biceps, will we still hug and talk about our day before we go to bed?

Or will the love of my life perish prematurely, without a sign.. or even slowly; Or will I be left.. left for another woman? Or walk out on my own will? Will my love turn into resentment? Will I grow old.. alone?

I love reading and hearing about love stories. Some are tragic and some are heart-warming. Each and every one is different.

I'm just curious..

How will mine be told?

Finally, my exams are over!!

My last paper was actually very easy for the super heard subject, many many people walked out before time was due, but I was still kinda struggling abit cos I was very demotivated to study towards the end... Sigh. I really hope and pray that I can pass this paper, then all is well.

Anyway, after I came out of the hall, my friend said "MICHAEL JACKSON DIED." Of course my first reactionw was "WHAT? Fake one la!"  Then when I called Kane:

Kane: I'm very sad, my hero died today
Me: MICHAEL JACKSON?? ITS TRUE?? REALLY AH.

On the way home my dad called to talk about the trip and he also "expressed his sadness over the passing of a true legend". So it was true!

Now everyone's like, MJ was the best and all the comments on how good he was are just flying around everywhere, but when he was alive, especially the past few years, everybody just pointed at him and called him a freak, at what strange things he does and weird things he wears to court; and call him the meanest thing - Wacko Jacko. Anyway, my point is.. I just realised how two-faced can people be!

Though I wasn't a huge fan (like my dad I think), my favourite MJ song is Billie Jean. Just a random fact lol.

RIP Michael Jackson. Its scary how can life just end when no one expects it to. I thought he would live to be a very old man.. Life is unpredictable. And short.

Sigh.

Oh well, The Sims 3 here I comes.

 Okay, last paper on Friday, hardest subject as well. And after going through 3 grueling papers, I don't know why but I feel more relaxed than I actually should, so relaxed that I am blogging instead of crying on the streets out of fear.

After this paper, I'll be free for about 3 weeks (students from other courses usually get about a month or more but the Pharmacy faculty is kiasu) and I acutally bought my plane ticket home! I wanted to give my friends a surprise but now because of the swine flu situation, I don't think I can make it back home without being quarantined for a week. And I only have 2 weeks!! That means I'll only have one week to go out and stuff, which is seriously not enough time for much. :( I'd still go home anyway, but my dad says no because my whole family has to be quarantined as well, and papa says might get swine flu on the plane. I seriously don't understand what the media is feeding the Malaysian public, like its a HUGE SCARE. But here in Melbourne, hardly anyone wears a mask even. Anyway, so he proposed a 3 options:

A) Go back but go stay myself in a hotel for a few days (aka self quarantine). Then return home if I don't show any flu-like symptoms.
B) Go to other parts of Australia instead to visit friends. Hi Laur/Gem
C) Don't go anywhere and play the Sims 3 like a fat Asian nerd (which I am at the moment)

And you know what, I'm happy with either option, the decision will be made by my dad (whether I go home or not) but things are leaning towards a nay to go home. :( But I made a lsit of what I can do back home anyway:

1. Dye my awful hair. Roots are showing like an Ah Lian
2. Eat like a pig (like I don't here)
3. Get another ear piercing. Long overdue. This time I don't care what Papa or Mama say.
4. Redo my IC
5. Drive around, with an AVANZA YO. I'm gonna drive a big ass car.
6. Eat high class food with the parentals. ENOUGH SAFEWAY FOOD. LOL.
7. See my Grandmama and Grandpapa. I miss them loads!! :(
8. See the crazy Molly.
9. And friends!!!!!
10. MAMAAAAK. Seriously, I'm dying to say "Teh Ais satu, bang!!" The Teh Ais here is damn expensive, like 2.5dollars which is about (whatever 2.5x2.7 is) Ringgit. And it doesn't beat the one at home la ok. 

But if I don't go home...

1. THE SIMS 3 YOYOYO whaddup.
2. Get to be with my little Rummer boy. He is walk-deprived at the moment. And sleeping on my bed. We are 2 fat beings of different species.
3. Hopefully the parents will give me some extra money to go shop heeheee!!! *EVIL GLEE*
4. Plus Kane will be back in 6 days after my exams (YES HE'S HOME. AND HE DRANK COFFEE BEAN. WHAT A MUTHA-)

Le sigh. I shall await the final conclusion from the all-mighty morphing power ranger - my father. I have seriously no idea why I said that. Weird.

Anyway, if I don't go, I set a few realistic goals for myself:

1. Learn how to knit. 
I know it sounds grandma but I want to knit my own scarf. And if it turns out well, I shall give to my fwens. ^__^ But most of my friends in are in a hot, tropical country so when they receive the scarf they will be like WTF?? but I don't care. ^_____________^

2. Go jogging everyday (okay, maybe every alternate day)
Been binging on chocs too much. Ask Debbie about my roundness. Lolz.

3. Bring Rummer for a daily walk 
Can be combined with 2 I suppose

4. Clean up my apartment.
I feel like I live in a dump. By the way, when I was cooking yesterday and I left the window open, I think some dumbass fly flew in and now its flying everywhere like is so fucking fun. and I kept trying to kill it but I keep failing. Its so annoying. One day I shall and in the process I will yell, "IS DYING FUN HUH??? HUH??" Violence.

5. Speaking of violence, FINISH GTA SA.
Yes I still haven't finished it, cos I can't pass this mission lar, anyone wanna help me?? :( I swear its one of the last missions.

Yeap. I think thats all I can think of at the moment. Oh wait, and kill the fucking fly. DAMN IT I HATE FLIES.

I'm so not prepared for my next exam, but I'm chilling out. Sigh.

Oh look at the time!! ITS CHOCOLATE TIME!!! NOMNOMNOM.

Before I begin with my awful lot of physiology studyload, I'd like to take this time to do what I do best - complain!

In the past week, I've come to learn that I'm best friends with painkillers. Okay okay, I know I sound damn freaking emo but I assure I'm not a pill-popping junkie with constantly dilated pupils and black eyeliner spam+black tears, Its just that I've been getting some sort (and some days multiple sorts) of pain every single day! Most days I have a migraine, last night I had the worst pain on my knee due to the cold weather, my back is always aching or uncomfortable and now I'm having cramps while typing this! And that is probably the reason I sound super cranky.

ARGHH. Why. Waaaaaiiii. Wai mast be liddat. I is hate!!!!!!!!!

Ten Things I Wish I Could Say to Ten Different People
(but don't say their names):

1. I think we could be good friends!
2. Thanks for helping me out!
3. I miss singing along with you!
4. You're in for a surprise!
5. I wish I could be more like you
6. I can't live with your expectations
7. Why don't you make more effort to keep in touch? :(
8. Thank you for making me feel comfortable
9. Please study hard!
10.  You have no idea lol.

Nine things about myself :

1. I'm attracted to buy anything blue/turquoise
2. I'm an impulsive shopper
3.I hate being let down
4. Decisions freak me out!
5. I love dessert
6. I wish I was more organised
7. I love indie!
8. I'm going through a perfume phase
9. I make alot of to-do lists, but I find it very hard to keep up to them lol.

Eight ways to win my heart :

(in no particular order)
1. Always offer hugsss
2. Putting effort (small or big) to put a smile on my face
3. Just treat me nice - talk nicely, simple as that!
4. Don't disrespect me
5. Be a gentleman - opening the door, offer to carry bags (not handbag, thats freakin' gay lol)
6. Listen to indie!!
7. Wittiness
8. Cook for me!

Seven things that cross my mind a lot :

1. Should I go for the next lecture....
2. I wonder what's Rummer doing
3. I'm going to study today, seriously (not)
4. What to eat
5. What to wear
6. Whats with me and spilling things?
7. Whats up with the attitude

Six things I do before I fall asleep :

1. Wash up
2. Do the dishes
3. Pat Rummer on the head
4. Plan for tommorow
5. Stare at the ceiling for a really long time, try to find a comfortable spot
6. Kiss goodnight (if applicable)

Five people who mean a lot (in no order whatsoever) :

Er, I have more than 5 so I'd rather not!

Four things your wearing right now :

1.$2 chiffon scarf
2. silver Valleygirl top
3. Pull and bear jeans
4. Swatch watch Kane got for me!

Three places that you would like to go:

1. UK!
2. Disneyworld!
3. Pawee

Two things you want to do before you die :

1. Be happy with my life
2. I want charkuayteow as my last mea

One confession : I feel like my sense of humor is slipping away!

Hi Gaiss!!

I feel guilty because I haven't been updating my blog much, calling back home as often and catching up with my fwens as often. The week just passes by so damn quickly and my time management skills are hopeless, I feel like I do nothing for most of the days. So anyways, just a quick update!

I have 2 tests tomorrow, and I haven't really studied much, which is bad obviously. And when I'm studying for some strange reason I end up here, blogging. My exams are in 2 weeks and I am very very stressed out, I am so afraid that I'll fail this semester and I can't go home, WORST NIGHTMARE. Thats the only thing that motivates me to get started. And yeah, the worst part of studying is getting started, and because I am the queen of procrastination, things are stalled and piled up. I feel scared even talking about it.

Random things in point form:

- I think my cooking skills are improving! I cooked chicken porridge today. My mother would be so proud.
- I've been eating chocolate everyday and every morning I struggle to button my jeans.
- My study mate happens to be the laziest, most distracting piece of sleepy lump I've ever met:


- I found Maggi mee curry in the Asian grocer. A 5-pack is almost 4 dollars = almost RM12. I eat it very very slowly to save for emergencies.
- I drink 3 cups of coffee a day
- I went to Camberwell market (secondhand goods) and I bought loads of shit!!!!! Yeaahh
- I've been procrastinating to buy my boots and now I have no more money to buy it this month. And I need it this month.
- Its so cold outside nowadays, ocasionally sunny, it can be really foggy even - another excuse to not go to lectures
- I still have not quit the habit of skipping lectures
- Rummer got another garmet - a knitted sweater, he looks like a spoilt English boy in it. (pic above) (My mum will kill me if she saw a pic of him on my bed, or him for that matter.)
- Rummer farts, snores and likes to sleep on his back on beds and bean bags. He's trying to be human.
- I think I'm going to start my work now. Lol.

.. After some hot choc. <33

Miss all of you!

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